this is my last day in Paris...i have to leave tomorrow morning. "what am I going to do without Europe?" i have a new determination in life, to make it worth living for me. i am brimming with new spirit and fervor for all things great and exciting. i want to drive forward and take life by the horns. officially, I am spitting out jargon that is born from my varied emotional state. everything that i do today will be done for the last time, until i am blessed to return to this country. i cannot process thoughts right now. i am pressed to be coherent. life is far too transient to take time out to sulk. if i continue this entry, i will soon be sulking but there is excitment awaiting me.

I must seize the day.